Words of Two

Words of Two

(for the younger to continue)


A long journey to go

With the glorious bubbles of the wave

A night sight of a raining sky and the rhythm made by the clave

We move to sail through a deep sea

We sit and share a single cup of tea.


The grassy boat we sail on

Is a home we build from the salty ocean and the sweet tea

For love we create is spacious, as the sea

and the moments we live are jovial, as the candy.


Those birds and the chirping sound

The ocean and the blue ground

It’s a tale we’re glad to create

A sole fantasy we both plan to serenade

The bliss we wish our juniours can feel true

A treasure we pass to them in space of two

The pure love we pour.. for the children to continue.




A wish i speak up in form of writing and i put them in row of words, so that when my wish becomes reality, and the alphabets are learnt..they read this and they understand


tomyamfan; Words of Two
April 16, 2011.




Bila saja senja menyapa

Kau mula riak buka bicara

Bila layar melabuh hilang syak curiga

Kau mendabik dada mula alpa


Sedang ranting tak bisa kau patahkan

Apa ada untuk kau terus banggakan?

Saat kau bangun tanpa rasa segan

Tidakkah kau tahu semua itu hak pinjaman

Takkan pernah kekal walau hidup dalam angan-angan


Bila berdiri kau rasa rendah

Bila duduk kau rasa tiada yang endah

Tiada yang kena bila jiwa mula serak merekah

Seperti orang bisu terpaku diam dalam resah

Masih kau impi lena di pantai?

Ombak mengalun lantas angin membuai

Masih kau mahu hidup dirantai?

Kaku kemas dalam impian yang masih tidak kau capai

Bukan salah berangan sendiri

Namun pernah kau tanya isi hati?

Adakah benar pengaturan ini?

Mencipta mimpi di siang hari

Mendatar hidup tanpa definisi

Bila angan-angan itu kau sendiri tidak pasti.

Renung saja pada sang pelita

Liuk-liuk cahaya kabur saat mentari mula menerpa

Hapus hilang akur aturan semesta

Lantas biarkan saja angan-anganmu ikut serta

Biar bayu meniup landai tinggal sisa-sisa cerita

Agar bisa kau bangkit mula hidup dalam nyata.

Biar pergi angan-angan itu

Biar termati ribuan mimpi-mimpi palsu

Asal terbukti misi hidup nan satu.



tomyamfan; Angan-angan
March 30, 2011.


Siapa bilang aku lupa bahasa ibundaku
Siapa berani pandang rendah pada Melayu.



while everyone is trying to find space for themselves

At least once in your lifetime u may be facing a situation which u find it hard to say out even a single word. u are afraid it might harm people or u are afraid u might violate peace.. the situation is hard. all u pray is to have the moment pass very quickly so that everyone releases the pain in order. the fact is u want too see everybody happy, yet because things dont go as smooth as we expect to be,,so we have to somehow wait and wait..we accept fate but in rebellious manner, we do murmur about things we dont understand.

Well lucky this is the place. the place for me to jot down what i don’t understand and to highlight lessons;- here i lay still because along the way i learned a lot through this..



tomyamfan; another part of her heart has not yet spoken up.
March 19th, 2011

Feelings fade..people change?

Drawing an analogy ;-

The grasses grow green after it’s raining the whole morning. the mood is fresh.. the scenery is eye-catching.

When the sun shines too hard in the afternoon, grasses turn yellowish.. the mood swings. the scenery becomes dull.

It changed..the mood, the scenery, the colour.. all changed.

People change too.. they are bound to change even they don’t like the changes. as the cliche says, our perspective changes because it is shaped by experiences and experiences make the reason..

We grow up, we move on.. we learn, we question.. we search,we demand.. we think, we analyse.

Some people think in reaching certain expected aim, one need to deal with time and make changes, or else nothing will show progress..

To some other people, they make changes because they don’t do well with satisfaction. they can’t stop searching what they wish to acquire..  at the end, they lose..they live in regret.

Now, is experience to be blamed? or the feelings that are too vulnerable?..



tomyamfan; feelings fade..people change?
March 1st, 2011

Chaos in Cairo and a Mother’s Heart

I’m sure millions of mothers’ hearts are in state that no one knows how terrible the hearts beat while waiting for the latest update from Cairo. Dear brothers and sisters over there, our pray is with u.. be safe..

Full post via: communicating.across.boundaries


It’s not freak anymore when something you really believe to happen, does happen.. it’s like when you believe something turns bad because your left eye is constantly blinking..

I wonder, is that to do with fact, or it’s about believing? contrary to popular belief, i think it might be as such for our mind is properly trained to identify mental process that accompanies feelings. it somehow urges our motivation to send signals that something may happen as we feel it true. things become just possible when we believe.

It’s still fresh in mind how i managed to sprint fast in a 100-metre sprint test (when i was in primary school) because i was told that the drink we’re served before the sprint was added some juice which contains chemical liquid that enables girls becoming powerful like boys. and i won the second place, in spite of how slow i was before!  yet for reality, nothing was added in the water except for syrup cordial and some ice..

It is how psychology plays in our nerves. when we feel something to become strongly true, even the most unexpected part is possible to happen. just like when we send a prayer, we find that it’s soon answered. not because it is accidental, but the slowest voice in our heart helps to motivate us; because we believe..

Psychology adjures mind to hold the circumstances, while belief lets them happen. just like when u believe you’re going to be loaded with money when your right palm feels itchy. it happens, because you believe so..and your slowest voice prays for it too =)

Most of the time, it’s psychology that manipulates our living such beautiful way..



tomyamfan; psychology;- when she was just being psychoed.
Jan 31st, 2011

the presence of tests

You know, when health and sickness problems come in life, it may be a test of our faith in God. we pray to Allah for the quick healing. indeed He responds to us but along the way when our prayers are answered, we are hard to thank Him in return—we ignore Him because we’re simply blinded by pleasures, and so again we have become ungrateful about the healing.

However without a doubt, every time we don’t get what we ask for, we later start to blame fate. complaints and whines are here and there at lips.. when it happens to me, oftentimes the spiritual enemies doing nothing less than to convince me that God doesn’t hear, unwilling to respond to my prayer. shall i, on my side, follow the enemies? instead i must come to thought that whenever my prayer for the quick healing is not yet answered, perhaps what i’m asking for is really not that good for me for the moment and in fact , it could perhaps harm me worse.

Even until now i keep praying for the tribulation to be less or slowly heal regardless of what i previously went through. the tests are meant to be present in any form. i only need to believe hard while praying.  we know that when Allah brings pain into our lives, He always has a reason.

Never give up praying. everything will be just okay..


tomyamfan; the presence of tests
Jan 1st, 2011 ; 4.30 pm


(sometimes it’s cool to write down what’s messy on mind. it’s such a good restart for the brain to function again)  ^__^