Archive for March, 2011

Angan-angan

ANGAN-ANGAN

 

Bila saja senja menyapa

Kau mula riak buka bicara

Bila layar melabuh hilang syak curiga

Kau mendabik dada mula alpa

 

Sedang ranting tak bisa kau patahkan

Apa ada untuk kau terus banggakan?

Saat kau bangun tanpa rasa segan

Tidakkah kau tahu semua itu hak pinjaman

Takkan pernah kekal walau hidup dalam angan-angan

 

Bila berdiri kau rasa rendah

Bila duduk kau rasa tiada yang endah

Tiada yang kena bila jiwa mula serak merekah

Seperti orang bisu terpaku diam dalam resah

 
Masih kau impi lena di pantai?

Ombak mengalun lantas angin membuai

Masih kau mahu hidup dirantai?

Kaku kemas dalam impian yang masih tidak kau capai

Bukan salah berangan sendiri

Namun pernah kau tanya isi hati?

Adakah benar pengaturan ini?

Mencipta mimpi di siang hari

Mendatar hidup tanpa definisi

Bila angan-angan itu kau sendiri tidak pasti.

 
Renung saja pada sang pelita

Liuk-liuk cahaya kabur saat mentari mula menerpa

Hapus hilang akur aturan semesta

Lantas biarkan saja angan-anganmu ikut serta

Biar bayu meniup landai tinggal sisa-sisa cerita

Agar bisa kau bangkit mula hidup dalam nyata.

 
Biar pergi angan-angan itu

Biar termati ribuan mimpi-mimpi palsu

Asal terbukti misi hidup nan satu.

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tomyamfan; Angan-angan
March 30, 2011.

 

Siapa bilang aku lupa bahasa ibundaku
Siapa berani pandang rendah pada Melayu.

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while everyone is trying to find space for themselves

At least once in your lifetime u may be facing a situation which u find it hard to say out even a single word. u are afraid it might harm people or u are afraid u might violate peace.. the situation is hard. all u pray is to have the moment pass very quickly so that everyone releases the pain in order. the fact is u want too see everybody happy, yet because things dont go as smooth as we expect to be,,so we have to somehow wait and wait..we accept fate but in rebellious manner, we do murmur about things we dont understand.

Well lucky this is the place. the place for me to jot down what i don’t understand and to highlight lessons;- here i lay still because along the way i learned a lot through this..

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tomyamfan; another part of her heart has not yet spoken up.
March 19th, 2011

Feelings fade..people change?

Drawing an analogy ;-

The grasses grow green after it’s raining the whole morning. the mood is fresh.. the scenery is eye-catching.

When the sun shines too hard in the afternoon, grasses turn yellowish.. the mood swings. the scenery becomes dull.

It changed..the mood, the scenery, the colour.. all changed.

People change too.. they are bound to change even they don’t like the changes. as the cliche says, our perspective changes because it is shaped by experiences and experiences make the reason..

We grow up, we move on.. we learn, we question.. we search,we demand.. we think, we analyse.

Some people think in reaching certain expected aim, one need to deal with time and make changes, or else nothing will show progress..

To some other people, they make changes because they don’t do well with satisfaction. they can’t stop searching what they wish to acquire.. ¬†at the end, they lose..they live in regret.

Now, is experience to be blamed? or the feelings that are too vulnerable?..

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tomyamfan; feelings fade..people change?
March 1st, 2011