Everytime i feel like saying out my feelings, i remember those who’re lacking love. I always want to speak my words, to show my feeling of missing home,missing my mom and missing those i miss. yet somehow im stuck there thinking of people whose their love has gone. they have no longer a person to call mom and dad, they have none to call family and they have perhaps lost someone they love in a way that they’re trying hard to retrieve the moments back. unfortunately, they just cant..
Thinking about this, i often end up keeping away my enjoyment and reserve it for any other reason, not to freely express it like no one cares. (there are people who care). there are people who might hurt listening to my wishes about these and those….because they could never get them back. no longer arms to cuddle, or even no longer place to call home.
To the people i surround whose their loved ones have gone, please note that im concerned with the loss. the bad part of myself is that, i just dont know how to express my condolence through speaking. i might not come to you to say sorry but i have softness inside, knowing how u feel and show my respect by not putting u into situation that might hurt u or reminding u of the loss even worse.
My writing isn’t able to bring them back i know. at least i write to release the pain and to share the gloom, if only it works this way.
tomyamfan; Love to Forever Share
(words of condolence)
nov 10th 2010