When you are about to work a plan, there are no more decisions to make. sometimes having to choose requires more than conflicts that mix up in mind. ever in my life, i often wait and watch. i believe the decision will be made in its own time, so not need to rush, just let go of when, where, and what to decide.
They say when there are no decisions to make, there’s no planned future. but to me there always be plans here and there; about these and those.. just that when a thought appears that life never gets more difficult than it’s supposed to be, all my decisions are made not influenced by time. as they are all made for future, sometimes i need to take longer to decide.
Though it’s a big matter for some people, i’ve no power to assure the world that i’ll surely do good. in making decision, i may make mistake i know. i may ignore these, i may hurt those. the fact that having desire to be the best is the highest level leads to imperfection. that’s what im afraid of. i have no beauty to lay on, no special talent to show off, so i rather be in average.
(are people willing to accept imperfection then?)
It cant be denied that there’s much misery in making decision; but i can’t get out from it. therefore the best thing i can do, although in the long run, i shall find a space for myself to think and to consider.
Give me time, i’ll make it..